Afternoon! So I have finally surfaced having arrived home from our night out at about 2am. The Mr stayed up for a while but we didn’t eat after our night out so of course today I am hanging like you would not believe. I almost believe I will actually never ever do it again. We ended up in this huge rush to get out of the door last night so I didn’t get a photo of my final outfit, so it might need you to picture it 😛 It was a sheer wrap top (the one I got on sale from new look), black trousers, clutch bag and my kimono top. I got quite a few compliments about my kimono which was good to hear and I was told I looked ‘nice’ which again was great! However, I was the only girl last night not to be wearing a dress out of all those that went out, I was gutted in myself for not just feeling more confident and facing my tolerance of my leg as I believe it could be like it for some time yet. It’s disappointing but at this point that is to of my hands.
I managed to get a few photos of last night but they include a few of my friends and as I’ve not asked if they mind being featured on my blog so I will leave it for now but I may add them a bit later… so for now… Just this picture
I was contacted on Facebook by a young lady who is trying to launch her fuller figured clothing range, I’ve told her I will find a way to include her on my page but I’ve not worked it out yet. Why are somethings so difficult?! I’m so not functioning properly today, that amount of wine is likely to be the cause and is totally self inflicted so definitely no sympathy for me. I’ve also discovered that I can’t really do this kind of night out anymore, I’m in agony with my back and leg today it’s ridiculous, that’s without the hangover!
Anyway back to last night. Of all the girls that went last night I would say only two were of the plus sized figure! So I was definitely feeling a bit heavy last night, the other girl looked lovely in a black dress overlaid with lace, she told me she got it from H&M, I think a visit to that store is on the cards, but feeling vulnerable in dresses, perhaps it’s not the best time to be buy anything like that. Thing is though I am hoping to get this leg better so I can wear things I’d like to try! I’m totally in love with a dress I have seen by Scarlett & Jo for Evans but I cannot justify paying out for something I might not wear for a while so might go out of style as it’s that kind of dress. I’ve been delighted to discover that kimono’s are very fashionable at the moment, it’s been a long time since I had anything that was in fashion so to speak, as I have avoided it as I haven’t always felt I can be fashionable as I am plus size and most of the looks out there are made for the smaller frame!
Tara is definitely the sexier of these two models!! I don’t quite understand why people would think otherwise to be honest… Admittedly I’m still a few sizes bigger than Tara and I was ranting that catalogues believe using a size 12 model to advertise plus size clothing is acceptable where as I think the models should be bigger for plus size clothing advertising. Tare does look good though doesn’t she? I don’t look anything like that in lingerie, but as long as the Mr loves me what else is there to complain about? He’s into photography so was using me to practise on here’s a pic from the selection…
They aren’t perfect but I was pressing him to take some pictures of me. I would love to be a bit a more daring and to try a bit harder with everything. I still haven’t signed up for the Pageant in July and I need to do it soon if I am going to do it! But I’m not sure I could face being made to feel less worth if I don’t win. I know it’s not always about winning and it is the taking part that counts but all the same I’m not sure ‘beauty pageants’ are the way forward. Is it just my lack of confidence that’s making me not want to do it? Fact is I started this blog because of the pageant so where does it go from there? It’s great that I have been shortlisted and I feel honoured to have been selected but I just don’t know if I can face parading around in a swimsuit, or playing dress up?!
I have a friend who I met online, we’ve yet to meet in person but she’s been a massive boost to my confidence. I feel like I can talk to her about absolutely anything and I completely take on board things she says including if things make me look frumpy! I’m grateful to her for her advice and for the things she tells me, she tends to lend me tips on where to get some sexy items from as well as nice clothes, like the ASOS Curve range. We are planning to meet but as I have a couple of busy weekends ahead it’s been difficult in trying to arrange where to meet! I sometimes wish I had more money to be able to just head on down there but it’s never easy is it?! I’m really looking forward to meeting her though she’s really great to talk to about varying with no worrying about judging, she doesn’t do it.
Ah well, as it’s Sunday it’s a day of peace which is brilliant for my hangover as well as the chance to spend sometime online looking at the UK options for plus size women! I still don’t know where I can get a magazine with hint and tips about everything I might want to know… Frustrating!
Signing off for now. CG. xx